I am not sure if you were able to catch Stranger than Fiction on HBO which was showing during the Holy Week. I myself was not able to see the full movie as I was doing the laundry during the day and ironing at night even though there were replays of the movie. Despite this i was able to appreciate the parts of the movie in terms of its significance in my life.

I am not hearing voices narrating my life but like Harold Crick, I have a lonely life. I am not about to die but like him who gave in in the end to the author’s literary skill of ending his life, i would also be willing accept the fate in the same case.

I would like to believe that my life is written by someone preferably a literary genius whose works are into a certified box office tragedy hit movie. I would like to believe that my
actions were according his conscious character design and the situations i am in are his creative plot. (Damn, can’t he find a better story to write? I want comedy.) And that whatever i do or not do are only in concurrence to his storyline. I have that feeling because at times i wanted to
do something counter to the situation at hand, i would be having a difficult time doing so. Also, at times i find myself not feeling the appropriate emotion in some situations. Maybe he overlooked that part to write anything about it.

I remember about a month ago when a friendly chat went through with Joel A. and Nino about destiny. Nino asked, "which would you prefer, follow your heart or accept your destiny?" This was actually  a soul searching question as he was wrestling some issues about his life, love life and career.

Frankly, i prefer following my destiny. That way i would not have myself blamed for whatever outcome. And also, acceptance would be much less hard as something out of your control becomes the ultimate conciliatory reason. I don’t enjoy justifying the good things and bad things in my life (especially the bad things) nor explaining what went wrong.

Anyway, enough with the musings. It was actually hilarious when your supposed councilor (Professor Hilbert in the movie) is agreeing with you and even entices you to find out your genre. I would not be anything than tragedy. I could surely pin down a long list before it would be even lunch time. (Sometimes i would even feel afraid to be happy because somewhere, somehow, sadness is lurking.)

That would explain it. I am not crazy. I am just written that way.